White space of wink

I am a person who is not very interesting , most time is in home. Sometimes from late at night to before dawn, I bent over windowsill to went ahead and smoked ,looked at the dark blue overgrown with underbrush sky. Somebody said ,"Day time is always limited. But dark night is vast boundless." Innumerable of night, I stayed on the deserted room or balcony. Thought about what were other people doing now. But I believed , it always had someone who liked me wakefulness. Had no way to fall asleep , could not also emitted any sounds. I always require myself that having sympathy. Because of I have many wounds about past and have no way to show. I knew so-called blind life and the agony of unable to find way out.Any object has a defect to be going to consummate. This is my appreciation of the beauty watches. But life chosen by me. That is one of the way to be lost and forced. Sometimes are beautiful , sometimes are also dreadful. But my life is so-called. Happiness is always a kind of illusion and we fluctuate in illusion.
----EMMA

Fly Away

I went out to have a meal with the host family last week..Sit at the same table of there were also had the friends of my host family.When they introduced me,my host mother said with smile,
"This is a girl who ran a lot of places by herself."
Remembering a men asked me,
"Be what prop up you to travel alone and don't have any sentimental attachment to one place?"
Thought along for a while, then took slightly to answered ashamedly,
"I think I want to refuse the erosion of emotion!"
There are too many things erode my soul,the elephant is similar to tidewater.Rush toward a dozen and drown constantly in the time.Sometimes feeling stifles.Float out sea surface,let sunlight emit slope into my eye;breathe air unrestrainedly,until get the feeling into the habit.

I'm a people who is always not to be fond of the TV . But, the program about journeying is my favourite. Finished watching a news report that the people lives in nearby antiquited mountain valley in that day.It gave me a deep impression. Captions appears on run-out , is that a pair of foot which was going forward in desert leaks . Old jeans and the short tube leather boots with the thick bottom.,Cool-headed step. Music is very graceful. Do not know it's an erhu or the wood bamboo flute. Tone colour is extremely bleak.

The people who walk alone is free and lonely. Have had experiencing in a flash. Begin to send out a cold in the heart right away. This program named .

A fine and cloudless dusk,on flourishing main street of downtown area,had seen one aircraft was flashing across. Many times , fantasize about I could fly. Fly to the remote place , fly to people who I love's side. Fly to the furure which have no way to anticipate . Because I know I don't have the wing !

Fly Away

　　 那天和host family一起出去吃饭。同桌的还有host family的朋友。介绍我的时候。Host mother笑着说，这是一个跑了好多地方的女孩子，常常说走就走。记得其中一个男人微笑着问我，是什么支撑着你做出这样的举动。想了半天，没想出来。然后略带惭愧地回答，是拒绝一种侵蚀吧。　　
侵蚀着灵魂的东西太多。象潮水一样，在时光中不断地扑打和淹没。有时会 感觉窒息。浮出海面。让阳光倾射在眼睛上。放肆地呼吸空气。直到对这种感觉上瘾。　
　一直是不喜欢电视的人。但关于旅行的节目是看的。那天认真地看完一个关于山峡附近古老民居的报道。片尾出现字幕，旁边是一双走在沙漠中的前进的脚。旧的牛仔裤和厚底的短筒皮靴。沉着的脚步。配的音乐很优美。不知道是二胡还是木笛。音色极为凄凉。　　
独行者的自由和孤独。在刹那间有了体会。心里就开始发凉。这个节目叫Flay Away。　
　一个晴朗的黄昏，在市区繁华的大街上，看到一架飞机飞过。看着它划过城市被建筑物分割的天空，一闪而过。很多时候，我们幻想自己能飞。飞到遥远的地方去，飞到爱的人的身边。飞到我们无法预料的未来。因为知道自己没有翅膀。

THANKFUL

我感谢太阳，它给了我们温暖；

我感谢月亮，在黑夜里给我们光明；

我感谢河流，它滋养了大地；

我感谢高山，它为我们阻挡风雨；

我感谢四季，令世上万物生长有序；

我感谢小鸟，它在哀伤时给我歌唱；

我感谢落叶，它带走了秋天的悲凉；

我感谢食物，它为我们牺牲生命；

我感谢售餐员的赞美，她令快乐充满每天；

我感谢擦肩而过的人们，令我不需孤独地活着；

我感谢路边的乞丐，让我明白幸福井非必然；

我感谢孩子，他们为世界带来希望；

我感谢父母，他们给了我生命；

我感谢妹妹，教导我对爱情的执着；

我感谢朋友，他们照亮我生命中的黑暗；

我感谢那个爱我的人，他令我明白了什么是爱；

我感谢那个不爱我的人，令我明白自由的可贵……

瞬白空间

我是一个很无趣的人，大部分的时间在家里。有时候从深夜至凌晨，一个人趴在窗台上抽烟，看着荒芜的深蓝天空。有人说：“白昼的时间总是有限。而黑夜却广阔无边。我的无数个夜晚，是持续地在空荡荡的房间或阳台上。不知道其他人在做什么。但我相信，总是有一些人，和我一样的醒着。无法入睡，也发不出声音。我一直要求自己做一个有同情心的人。因为我有一个带着创伤却无法示人的过去。我知道所谓的盲目的生活和找不到出路的痛苦。任何事物有缺陷才会完美。这是我的审美观。而我所选择的生活。那是一条流离所失的路途。有时候很美，有时候也让人恐惧。可是我的生活就是如此。幸福始终是一种幻觉。我们在幻觉中起伏。

----EMMA

Scarborough Fair

Are you going to Scarborough Fair?
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme

Remember me to one who lives there

For once she was a true love of mine

Have her make me a cambric shirt

Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme

ithout no seam nor fine needle work

And then she'll be a true love of mine

Tell her to weave it in a sycamore wood lane

Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme

And gather it all with a basket of flowers

And then she'll be a true love of mine

Have her wash it in yonder dry well

Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme

where water ne'er sprung nor drop of rain fell

And then she'll be a true love of mine

Have her find me an acre of land

Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme

Between the sea foam and over the sand

And then she'll be a true love of mine

Plow the land with the horn of a lamb

Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme

Then sow some seeds from north of the dam

And then she'll be a true love of mine

Tell her to reap it with a sickle of leather

Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme

And gather it all in a bunch of heather

And then she'll be a true love of mine

If she tells me she can't, I'll reply

Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme

Let me know that at least she will try

And then she'll be a true love of mine

Love imposes impossible tasks

Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme

Though not more than any heart asks

And I must know she's a true love of mine

Dear, when thou has finished thy task

Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme

Come to me, my hand for to ask

For thou then art a true love of mine

生命是一场幻觉。烟花绽放了。我们离开了。

我把我的文字写给相通的灵魂看

有往事的缺口，有幻想的抚摸，有诺言的甜美，有失望的伤痕

那些和我擦肩而过的人群，空旷海底的鱼，深不可测的寂寞

在喧嚣的地铁站里，我看到了那个女人

她脸色苍白，一言不发

等待着一个不会出现的人，然后和他告别

然后我看到了我自己。。。。。

EMMMA in San Francisco!!!